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Iris
Friday, March 23rd, 2012 01:10 pm
An Update

[originally posted on iris-impressions.com]

If I wait until I have something interesting to say I don't think I'll ever write another blog post. I should really set aside some time every week to write something.

Jupiter


He is now about 10.5 months and a real delight! Don't all parents say that though? I'm not a big fan of other kids (lol I actually feel much more comfortable saying this now than I did in the past) but I absolutely adore Jupiter and could talk about him 24/7.

I'm glad I'm not a full-time mum though (it's a mixed blessing). Being with a baby all the time is really tough and working full-time (from home though, so I see him a lot, which is great) allows me to have a much better mental balance.

We're currently introducing a bit more of a routine for him. Mostly focussed around his sleeping at night and napping. He's really at that point where he needs it (and so do we!).

He's very chatty, although doesn't say any specific words yet with any consistency (he may have said 'dad' a few times and 'byebye'). He's crawling like a trooper, SO FAST. He loves chasing the cat. He's also pulling himself up to standing along the furniture and 'cruising'. He can stand by himself for a couple of seconds at a time, so I think he's well on his way to walking soon!

Violin


My violin playing has really gone up a gear. My friends and I had a little performance before Christmas where we played a few pieces we'd been working on and loads of Christmas carols to which the audience sang along. I was very nervous but it was lots of fun!

We're currently aiming towards another concert during the Easter weekend and we're playing Pachelbel's Canon in D. It's bloody hard! Having two lessons a week currently, plus trying to get in 30 minutes of practice a day. I'm really excited as I love this piece but also totally feel I don't have enough time to really get it into shape.

It's so nice to have a goal to work towards though, it really helps with the motivation.

Misc

Taking Jupiter to visit my aunt in Holland in a few weeks. Very excited about this!

Signed up for horse riding lessons again (I had to stop when I got pregnant). I'm on a waiting list though, so I have no clue when I'll be able to start.

Playing a bit of Star Wars online. The single player aspect of it is very strong and immersive, which is good as I only have about 2-3 hours a week to play so it's pretty much a single-player experience for me at the moment. I miss grouping up and raiding from back in the day when I played World of Warcraft a lot but I just don't feel I have the time needed to invest in this, nor the desire to be honest. The biggest thing I miss is the people I used to play with. My WoW subscription expired a month ago or so and I don't see myself renewing it. *small tear*

I am learning to drive!! Been taking lessons since September. I passed my theory test the other month and have my practical booked in about a month's time. I'm nervous, but still have quite a few lessons booked to really brush up on everything and practice lots.

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Iris
Friday, June 17th, 2011 07:38 pm
Jupiter
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My son Jupiter was born on 8 May 2011! I was induced 2 weeks early due to a pregnancy related medical condition. Apart from the induction I had a natural labour & birth which lasted all of 1.5 hours (I know you're jealous. Or if you've never given birth you probably have no idea what this means).

He is absolutely amazing and I am loving it! I know you're kind of supposed to say that, and sure there are things that aren't easy (breastfeeding for one) but overall it's just so enjoyable. I really feel very fulfilled and like I have a new purpose.

Between taking care of Jupiter and working part time and THE LAUNDRY I have very little time, so rather than writing more I will just say it with pictures!









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Monday, March 14th, 2011 09:09 pm
New Art Pieces in February and March 2011
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I have been busy busy for a change! Usually I am just lazy lazy. I have been cutting down on my World of Warcraft time lately (and unfortunately also violin time, I'd like to play more but am feeling hugely unmotivated currently), not really as a conscious choice but I just find I am busy with other things that I enjoy more.

Saturday just gone marked 30 weeks of my pregnancy! So over the past few months and the coming few weeks I'm seeing a lot of friends to catch up before 'my life is over' (as I've patronisingly been told by some people). It's both scary and exciting to think that it's not much longer to wait now. We're doing a lot of preparations at the moment, mostly in the form of buying stuff. We still need to get a car seat and the carrycot attachment for our pushchair. Other than that it's just a ton of small stuff we need. We're also starting antenatal classes at the end of this month. We've signed up for the NCT courses and I look forward to meeting other couples in our area.

I've been fairly productive with art lately. I don't know if it's the pregnancy that's inspiring me or maybe the feeling of spring which is always a positive time of year. When it comes to creating art it's the mental obstacles that stand in my way the most (I am not good enough, my art is not pretty enough, it doesn't look as good as x/y/z artist's work, I don't create as much as others so mine isn't 'valid' somehow etc, the list goes on for a looooong time!). I can't say I have found a specific way of battling these demons, but I am feeling slightly more confident lately and am really trying to tell myself that doing ANY art is all part of the process, whether I like the piece I end up with or not.



Pregnant Princess - I'd had the idea for doing a whimsy pregnancy painting floating around in my head for a while. After doing Bird in a Cage which had very dark colours, I wanted to do something with light and cheery colours. We've been working on our baby's room and I wanted to make something that could possibly go up on the wall in there. I am quite pleased with how the piece turned out overall. I always find it scary to paint a face because I never feel like I have a lot of fine control over the expression, but it turned out OK (although quite different from the sketch I was working from!). I also like the colours and the textures.



Walking My Elephant - I actually don't like this one particularly. I felt good about it when it was still a sketch, but then I started with the colour and stuff went wrong (the black outlines smudged around her mouth and I didn't end up being able to fix it properly). Ironically I've had some comments from people that they like it and they think it's cute. That just goes to show! I guess I like the concept but too much went wrong with the execution so it just left me with a bad feeling that I can't seem to shake.



I Am Already Authentic - This one I like, both because of what it looks like and what it represents. This is an art journal spread that is the week 1 assignment of Tam's free Art, Heart & Healing course. The aim of the assignment was to listen to my inner critical voice and write down all my self-criticisms and doubts. Then I gessoed over the words as a symbolic letting go. The next part was to paint a 'self portrait' and turn the criticisms into one positive statement (coming from the point of view that the critical self is only trying to protect us, albeit going about it in a negative and self-destructive way!).

For me the main theme that came out of this exercise is around not feeling authentic or special as I am, and always feeling like I have to be more like other people in order to be liked or loved or noticed. It's a constant struggle as intellectually I know I am authentic and special and have my own unique message to impart, but I find it very hard to really feel and believe that as well. It is one of the many reasons I find it hard to create art and update my blog regularly as well! I often can't imagine why anyone could possibly be interested in me or what I have to say. I am not saying that in a self-deprecating 'pity me' way by the way, I am just trying to illustrate some of my personal struggles around self-worth and authenticity.



Hint Of A Smile - A while back I did a workshop at Blade Rubber Stamps to learn how to make your own Japanese Stab Bound Journal. It was a fun class and at the end we took home our own album that we made during the class. I think it has about 15 pages in it with nice high quality paper (not watercolour paper but it's fairly thick and very nice for art journalling on). This piece is on the first page of the album. It's so nice to work in an album I created myself from scratch! Really adds to the feeling of ownership and pride. I am also very pleased with this page. I felt confident and in control about the face and I like the colours and level of complexity in the background.

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Friday, February 11th, 2011 07:23 pm
Iris' Life Update ca Feb 2011
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I find it hard to update regularly. Part of it is laziness, part of it is not knowing what to write about, but I think the biggest part is feeling like I don't have anything interesting to say, or that people won't be interested in what I have to say. I guess that's a problem of self-confidence. So what I'll do is I'll make this an Iris' Life Update ca Feb 2011, because that easily solves the problem of not knowing what to write about. The other ones I'll have to work on solving.

Pregnancy/Baby

Obviously this is the most dominant feature in my life at the moment. You know how once people get pregnant or have kids that's the only thing they'll talk about anymore? Well, it's true. It completely takes over your life. Especially in the first few months it was all I could think about all day. I would obsessively check how many weeks along I was and how the foetus was developing, not to mention worry about all the things that could go wrong. The obsession is abating a bit now (I am nearly 26 weeks, or 6 months, or roughly two-thirds of the way through) but it gets replaced with more practical concerns like what do we need, how much does it cost, where do we buy it, where do we put it.

So far I would say pregnancy has been a mixed experience. On the positive side, I love being pregnant and knowing that there is a baby growing inside me. I love feeling the baby move, it's really funny and touching. It's like I always have company. I also think that because the baby is inside me and moving, I tend to regard it as more mature than an actual baby, it's kind of hard to explain what I mean. I really like sharing the experience with Andrew and whenever he can feel the baby move it's so special. I also love it when Andrew talks to my belly! It's so funny and touching, makes me feel really loved.

The negative aspects of pregnancy are pretty much all physical at this stage and they fluctuate a lot from day to day. In the beginning (first trimester) there was the nausea and the tiredness. They went away around 3 months into the pregnancy and since then until about early January things had been quite comfortable. For the past month or so I've been experiencing quite bad back aches and I'm starting to get tired again. The tiredness isn't so much from the pregnancy itself, but rather because I wake up about every 2 hours during the night, so even if I sleep for a long time, the quality of sleep I'm getting isn't great. The back aches I'm doing some exercises for and taking paracetamol. The combination of the two seems to help although it fluctuates from day to day. I also asked my midwife to refer me to a physio, for which the waiting list is 6 weeks.... alright then.

From an emotional point of view there are a few things I've struggled with. Firstly, my growing belly and weight gain. It's something I find incredibly hard to reconcile and know how to feel about it. On the one hand it's awesome and a great source of pride. On the other hand it triggers a lot of negative feelings about my self-image. I've always been a fairly slim person (although I had a bit of a pudgy phase when I was a teenager) with stable weight, but at the same time that doesn't mean I didn't worry about being fat/gaining weight/the way I looked. Although I have never been either anorexic or overweight physically, emotionally weight has always been an issue for me. So gaining weight due to the pregnancy affects the way I feel about myself and I guess I feel less in control. Currently I eat whatever I want and whenever I'm hungry, and my weight gain is about on par with what is normal. That doesn't stop me worrying about it though =p

Secondly, the sex of the baby. Andrew and I were in agreement from the beginning that we wanted to know the sex and I never made a secret of the fact that I really wanted a girl, no matter how 'politically incorrect' that may sound. As an aside: sure you're supposed to say 'as long as it's healthy', but I find that a bit of a ruse, because it's not like there is anyone out there actively hoping their baby isn't healthy. I think it's much more healthy from an emotional point of view to be honest about what you're feeling, because whether you announce them to the world or not, the feelings are there and need to be dealt with.

So, I wanted a girl, which made me quite sure that I was going to have a boy (because that is how the universe works n'est-ce pas?). Andrew was really convinced we were having a girl. Turns out I was right =p So we're having a boy, which is something I have really had to get used to. I still really want a girl, but I don't wish this baby was a girl. Having a boy is emotionally complicated for me. Girls are much more firmly in my own comfort zone: I am a girl, I was raised by a single mother, I didn't have a father figure or much exposure to boys/men. On some level I have probably always been intimidated by boys/men, because they were so very other. And I probably also passively got the message that women don't need men, and that boys don't need their mother. Having a boy triggers many more feelings of discomfort and insecurity in me. It is funny, but also reassuring, that all my friends who have had babies in the past 1.5 years (or are expecting now) also had boys.

Thirdly, going through this huge life changing experience without my mother. This is a difficult one, because as of yet I don't actually really feel the impact of this. Of course it sucks in an ongoing way, but what I am most worried about is the labour and that is a big unknown. Although I'm sure the labour isn't going to be a picnic physically, that is not what I am worried about (ironically, before I got pregnant it always seemed the biggest obstacle, why would anyone willingly push out a baby through their vagina? Insane - whereas now I'm worried about NOT being able to have a natural birth and needing a caesarean). As of yet, and I imagine until I actually go through it, I do not know what my emotional needs are going to be during labour. Of course I will have Andrew, which is hugely important to me, but he is not a woman, nor is he my mother. I have read Hope Edelman's Motherless Mothers (a few years back I read Motherless Daughters) which has already been hugely helpful and actually made me more aware of the emotional issues that could come up during the birth (and afterwards, but that's a whole 'nother chapter for later).

Art/Craft

Art has taken a little bit of a backseat the past few months. I think I go through phases, ebbs and flows of inspiration and creativity. It’s something I used to berate myself for, like I wasn’t allowed to feel good about the art I create (or wasn’t allowed to create at all) just because I’m not consistent and do it every day. I’m trying to let go of that feeling and just create when I feel like it, and not when I don’t.

I had the idea for Bird in Cage for a while, I did a quick sketch last year in a notebook, but hadn’t sat down to actually create it until this year. I used bits of greeting cards and letters that family & friends sent to me over the years as the background. Then I went over it with gesso and paint until I got the grungy textured background I was aiming for. The bird itself was done with watersoluble oil pastels. The cage was done with gold embossing powder. I love the effect of embossing, but it’s such a time consuming and fiddly job.

I’m currently working on a whimsy portrait on watercolour paper. I’d like to improve my shading techniques and generally get more comfortable at creating faces. I also recently worked a bit on the digital portrait I started last year, but I paid dearly for it the next day as it made the RSI in my elbow very bad.

I’m also working on a soft toy for the baby. It will be crocheted. The colours I picked are grassy green, bright purple and navy. It’s going to be some type of caterpillar-like animal. The yarn I’m using is quite thin and I’m using a 2.5mm hook, but nevertheless progress is quite quick. I just have to be careful I don’t overdo it with my elbow. I have until May to finish it anyway!

Violin

Still enjoying & taking lessons! I meet up with a couple of friends every Wednesday (they come to my place, lucky me!) and we practice together. It’s great, because if we didn’t do that I would probably get very behind. I don’t practice a lot by myself, due to laziness and tiredness. I definitely do want to continue with it though, as far as possible throughout pregnancy and after the baby is born. I think it will be nice (not to mention important) to have a few evenings a week to do stuff just for me. The baby enjoys music too! He tends to move around when I play, or listen to music or when we go to a concert.

World of Warcraft

Ahh the time sink and reason for all my laziness! I’m mostly kidding, I haven’t actually been able to play that much lately, but I have to say I am enjoying the game a lot more again since Cataclysm came out. I first levelled my resto druid who used to be my main during TBC and at the beginning of Wrath. I lost interest in the class during Wrath as the challenge was just gone. It’s slightly more challenging again, but once I hit 85 and was faced with the grind for gear and rep I just didn’t feel like it.

Instead I dusted off my holy priest. Holy priesting is SO MUCH FUN right now! The class really has a lot of abilities to play with. She’s about 20% away from lv85 and I actually look forward to getting geared up for heroics. On the side I’m also playing my prot pally a bit. It’s verrry different from what it was like in Wrath, but nice to have new toys to play with and re-learn things. It keeps things interesting.

mood: happy

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Iris
Thursday, November 18th, 2010 01:24 pm
Baby!!!!!!!

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Yes that's mine!! And Andrew's. We're so incredibly super excited and happy! I'm currently 13 weeks and 5 days pregnant and my due date is 21 May 2011.

It's actually starting to get good now. From week 5 to week 10 I was quite nauseous and incredibly tired all the time. Now I feel fine (although still needing slightly more sleep than usual) apart from feeling RAVENOUSLY hungry pretty much all the time! But it's definitely preferable to not fancying food at all. Other people probably won't notice yet but I'm starting to get a bit of a belly, my trousers are getting a bit tight. So are my bras, which I am SO not complaining about =p

It was also really nice and special to get a scan. Before my scan I was just so worried and anxious all the time because there wasn't really any way of knowing whether everything was alright. I'm not sure what it's like in other countries but when you get pregnant in the UK you get a LOT of information which include a lot of scary statistics. I'm one of those people who prefers knowledge over ignorance, but it's very hard to keep positive in the face of so many statistics about stuff that can go wrong (especially in the first trimester).

We went on holiday to Holland for two weeks at the end of October to visit family & friends. Everyone was really happy and supportive. We went by car and actually managed to fit my old changing table (which was also my aunt's changing table and possibly my mum's) AND playpen in the boot. It's like family freecycle haha. I love the idea of using the same furniture that my mum used for me when I was a baby.

On a completely different note, one of my art journal pages is featured in this month's Art Journalling It's All Good e-zine. I was really surprised and flattered when they asked. Getting a copy is only $5 and it's filled with useful and interesting articles about art journalling, I really recommend it. Profits from the sales go to a good cause.

mood: happy

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Iris
Sunday, September 26th, 2010 11:40 am
Journal Pages and a Thank You
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I am working on a blog post listing my 10 favourite art supplies. I need to take some pics to jazz it up a bit and then I'll post it, hopefully within a couple of days.

In the meantime I wanted to share these two journal pages I did this past week. Although I usually don't plan my journal pages before starting, I do tend to work in a deliberate way where I think about something before I do it. With these pages, especially the second one I tried to 'switch off' that part of my brain that over-thinks things and makes conscious decisions. I literally just kept moving and grabbing the supplies that spoke to me.

You can click the images for full size.





It was actually quite an enlightening process. It wasn't just a different way of creating, but I also felt very different about what I created. Afterwards I felt very.. I don't know exactly, like the process had been cathartic. Usually I'm very critical of what I create: if I create something pretty that I like I'll feel very proud, if I create something ugly or badly executed I'll feel badly about myself. In this case neither positive nor negative judgements about the work came to mind, I just felt like I had expressed something that needed expressing but which I didn't necessarily know consciously or verbally. That might also be a reason why the second page is much darker and more gloomy than I would ordinarily create if I were working 'deliberately'.

I dunno, I hope this all makes sense and doesn't sound like some kind of mumbo jumbo! If you've had any similar experiences I'd love to know about it. I really feel like art isn't just about creativity and expression, but also about self-discovery and accessing the subconscious.

On another note, I just wanted to thank the handful of people who have left comments on my blog the past week or so (and also those people who visit but don't comment). I really appreciate you taking the time to read my blog and interact, it's very motivating and encouraging!

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Iris
Monday, September 20th, 2010 11:17 am
Art Supply Shops in London
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I love going into art shops and nosing around for new supplies (or stocking up on basics). I can't imagine how they must struggle against competitive online suppliers. Nothing beats actually going into an art shop though, I'm addicted! So I thought I would compile a list of shops I frequent that sell art supplies in London. Most of these ones are in Central London. I hope you find this helpful!

AtlantisAldgate, E1
http://www.atlantisart.co.uk
A huge shop (biggest in the UK according to their website) with pretty much any art supplies you can think of. Lots of supplies for fine art, but also things for kids, plenty of materials for mixed media artists (they do both natural and bleached beeswax). Huge range of Golden & Liquitex products. Best thing about Atlantis is that their prices are very very good.

Blade RubberBloomsbury, WC1
http://www.bladerubberstamps.co.uk
This shop is a must for art journalers. They don't just do rubber stamps but a ton of papercrafting accessories and more. They do a lot of mixed media & art journaling essentials. It's the only shop I've found that actually stocks things like Stewart Gill paints, mica flakes and specialist magazines. They are unfortunately quite expensive but you do have the advantage of seeing the supplies in the flesh rather than guessing what something is like when you buy online. They also do classes.

Cass ArtCharing Cross, WC2 - Soho, W1 - Hampstead, NW3 - Kensington, W8
http://www.cassart.co.uk
They have a few branches and do great deals on quite a lot of their stock. Paper, sketchbooks, Promarkers (sets) and Caran d'Ache watersolubles (sets) are really competitively priced. I haven't been to their flagship store, but their smaller store on Charing Cross road is great for picking up a few essentials.

CornelissenBloomsbury, WC1
http://www.cornelissen.com
Quite fine art focussed, but I would recommend going in here even if you're not interested in what they sell: the inside of the shop is amazing! It's what you'd imagine stepping into a 19th century art shop would be like. Apart from the obvious they sell some interesting stuff (I found some type of gold coloured powder in there, never seen that anywhere else) and tucked away at the back you can find discounted supplies.

Cowling & Wilcox LtdSoho, W1 - Shoreditch, E1 - Camberwell, SE5
http://www.cowlingandwilcox.com
It's been a few years since I went into this shop but I think they're quite similar in terms of stock to Cass Art.

HobbycraftCroydon, CR0 - Greenford, UB6 - Romford, RM1 - Watford, WD17
http://www.hobbycraft.co.uk
You have to travel a bit further out of town, but the size of the store makes up for it. Prices aren't as low as you might expect, but the shop is great for browsing because they have so much. They cover almost every area of art and craft. I especially like going into the aisle with art supplies for kids, you can pick up some nice things for mixed media projects for a lot less money than the stuff that's specifically targetted at art journaling.

John LewisOxford Street, W1
http://www.johnlewis.com
The haberdashery department in John Lewis has some nice bits & bobs. I've only been there for my knitting/crocheting needs, but they also do lots of little accessories (embellishments, ribbons etc) and I think they're picking up on crafters' needs a bit more over the past couple of years.

London Graphic CentreCovent Garden, WC2
http://www.londongraphics.co.uk
I love this shop because it's got a lot and is so central. They are a bit pricey though. In the ranges of drawing/watercolour pencils, (watersoluble) oil pastels, conte crayons etc they sell single colours of almost everything which can be very handy. They sell an adequate range of paints & mediums although if you really want to go to town on those I'd still recommend Atlantis.

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Iris
Tuesday, September 14th, 2010 11:52 am
I'll Just Wait Here - Art Journal Video
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After many many years (2, pretty much) of not creating any art videos, I finally made one again!

When I moved house (the first time, and the second time as well), I finally got an art desk. I'd wanted this for a long time: a dedicated space to do my art and leave all my supplies out rather than having to tidy everything away after doing art (which was very inhibiting). That did mean though that I couldn't do any art videos anymore as I recorded them with my webcam which has to be attached to my computer (which is at my regular desk) to function.

I decided to get myself an 'entry level' camcorder. I didn't want to spend too much money as I was not sure (and still am not, given my propensity to have fleeting intererests) if I'd stick with it. So I went with the Toshiba Camileo S20. The reviews were very good (for the price & size) and it does pretty much everything I need (although it doesn't have an optical zoom which is the only real downside).

I'm still trying to figure out how to get the best angle on the art work. I have a small desk tripod (it came with the camera) which I used for this video. It came out alright but next time I would like to have the point of view a little more 'face on', so you can really see the details of what I'm doing. I'll have to see if I can figure something out. Maybe a more sophisticated desk tripod would work. My art desk is in what is currently the storage room (we're hoping to convert part of our house, so haven't unpacked lots of boxes yet) so there isn't enough room for a proper tripod. If you have any suggestions or tips I'd love to hear them!

Anyway, in the video below you can see me create this page in my art journal (you may need to go to the actual post page to see the video, I can't see vids on my friends list, it might be the same on yours). I hope this is the start of more regular art video updates you'll see from me!





mood: happy

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Monday, September 6th, 2010 07:50 pm
Art Journalling - A Safe Place
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After creating Hetty & Dimitri's painting I wanted to do art more regularly, but found doing paintings quite intimidating (especially if they're just 'for me', rather than a present). So I decided to get back into my art journal. I neglected art journalling for over a year due to judgements swirling around in my head. Thoughts about not feeling good enough, or not creating 'pretty' pages, or other people out there being better than me.

Then I thought to myself that I should really try to work through those negative thoughts, and not let them control me. An art journal (in theory) is the best place to do that. It's much more of a 'safe' place than for example a canvas which leads me to pressure myself into having to create something 'good' (whatever that means, I am hyper critical of my own work, I'm sure other artists can relate). I am definitely learning to be more accepting of what I create and to take pleasure and satisfaction from creating in the first place rather than judging myself for creating something that looks rubbish and then punishing myself by feeling badly and not doing more art.

I especially like the whole 'creating & moving on' style of working. It's all about the process and expressing yourself, not about a perfect finished product with not a hair out of place. It's such a great platform for experimenting with technique, composition, materials, colours etc. Love!


Permission To Be Me
Aesthetically I don't love this piece, but it is important to me because I was able to accept it and move on from it. The whole theme of the page is about giving myself permission to do and be, and not punishing myself for whatever arbitrary reason. It's funny, because I am always so scared of negative comments or feedback, but the most negative and critical person to evaluate my art is me!


Worthy
I started this page back in 2008 (I think 'worthy' was a prompt from SuziBlu) when I painted the mice and the house with the girl. There were lots of words scribbled in the empty space and I hated the whole thing! Then the other week I decided to go back to it. I added the background and the stamped words and now I actually really like it. Such a simple addition but it made all the difference to me.


Princess and Her Castle
Not much of a story behind this one. I wanted to draw a whimsical girl and already had the idea in my head for a castle in the background. I initially had a sticker of a rose in the entrance of the castle but I got rid of it because I preferred the darkness/scariness of the black hole. I bought this amazing butterfly stamp which you can see in the background, it's so pretty.


Doodles
Just some doodles I did for fun while on the train (which is why some of the lines are anything but smooth!). If you want to learn how to doodle I would highly recommend this video by Marieke Blokland. It's awesome!


Growing, Learning, Loving
I had been thinking of doing a pencil sketch. I wanted to try a 3/4 face according to the things I had learned in Tam's portrait class. It's my first attempt at doing a non-front facing portrait and I found it quite difficult. Also I think I got confused and switched light sources about 4 times throughout drawing so the shading doesn't necessarily make sense lol. Nevertheless I really do love this page as it was fun, good practice and I can see progress in my technique and I also like the composition.

mood: accomplished

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Thursday, August 19th, 2010 10:30 pm
Digital Painting with a Wacom Bamboo
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[Originally posted on http://iris-impressions.com]

I recently got myself a Wacom Bamboo Pen & Touch tablet. It had nothing to do with art, but more with the tennis elbow that I've been suffering from since about March this year. Nothing to do with playing tennis, but more with overusing the computer/mouse and using it in the wrong way. It's a long story really and not too interesting to go into in great detail. I'm still suffering from it, have done and am doing a lot to combat it but it's a very persistent problem (I use the computer for work, so there's no easy alternative). Aaanyway, one of the things I thought might help would be to use a tablet instead of a mouse. Indeed it's a lot nicer (much more neutral & natural way of holding and moving my hand, and less cramped).

Obviously tablets are more traditionally known for allowing you to use the mouse like a pen/pencil/brush and creating art with it, so I thought I'd give it a go too. As you may know I like to do some mixed media art here and there, but haven't done any digital painting. I did some Googling and came up with this Introduction to Painting by Jeff Priest. The premise is very simple, sketch something, then colour it using one colour and it's highlight & shadow counterparts.

I decided to start with an apple, picked a reference picture and started a sketch (I use Photoshop CS2 in case you were wondering). I find sketching with the tablet quite difficult compared to sketching with a pencil. I find I don't have as much control, sometimes my lines go completely all over the place. When sketching with a pencil I always find it difficult to sketch the right side of things (like the right side of a face, or indeed, the right side of an apple) and with the tablet I find that problem magnified even further. However, working with a computer does mean it's very easy to undo or erase stray lines.

Then I started to add the colour. It took me a few minutes to get to grips with the brushes and especially fiddling with the opacity to add shadows/highlights and blend the colours. But then my brain just 'clicked' and it became quite a fun and therapeutic process of going over the sections and refining the painting. It was only a quick exercise (as an aside, I am terrible when it comes to practicing or doing exercises. It's like some sort of mental block for me. I somehow have this notion that I need to be good at something without practice, otherwise it's not worth doing or I am not worthy of doing it. Intellectually (and indeed, logically) I know that's complete bullshit, but I can't help but feel badly when I'm not magically good at something but *gasp* need practice), it probably took about an hour, but very satisfying to see something take shape like that. I'd say that using the tablet in conjunction with the brushes in photoshop made the colouring/shading very easy and pleasurable. However, I found it quite difficult to make nice smooth curves. Overall I found it easier than 'real' painting. I find it hard to know how to create realistic shading, but working digitally gives you a big margin for error because of the ease with which you can go over something again and refine it without having to wait for something to dry, or worrying you're going to ruin your work so far.

After doing the apple, which was fun but a bit boring, I thought I'd try a portrait. A while back I did an online portrait course run by my friend Tam (she runs a lot of courses, I really recommend them!), so I applied the theory I learned then on how to create a front facing portrait. I've worked on it a few hours and you can see the work in progress below. I'm pleased with it so far. I'm also blown away by how comparatively easy it is because of it's flexibility. I love little 'cheating' tricks like.. sketch the left side of the face, and then just copy it, flip horizontally and place it to create a whole face that is symmetrical.. mwahaha. Working digitally really helps guide you to create something halfway decent much quicker than with regular painting (I find, anyway). Of course it does lack the 'realness' of actual painting. One of the things I love about working with mixed media is the textures and smells of real paint, wood, paper etc and digital art doesn't have that.



Unfortunately using the tablet for hours on end in such a concentrated way isn't great for my elbow... so I really have to be responsible and not do it too much (or probably at all.. but doing what's good for yourself isn't always easy or fun).

mood: accomplished

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Iris
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010 02:53 pm
Hetty & Dimitri's Wedding ( originally posted on http://www.iris-impressions.com )
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When I was in my second year of uni I shared a flat (in Lewisham *shudders*) with Hetty. In the same year she met Dimitri and on 31 July 2010 (Saturday just gone) she got married to him! I went over to Gibraltar where the wedding was being held (they live there) and spent a lovely couple of days with Hetty, her family & friends. It was really amazing and the wedding was perfect! (I know everyone says that, but I work in the wedding industry so I like to pretend a statement like that from me carries more weight =p)

They didn't have a gift list and said they didn't want any presents because people being able to come to Gibraltar was present enough. Obviously I couldn't show up empty handed, but I'm not a big fan of giving toasters (besides, a nice toaster is bloody expensive!) or generic presents just for the sake of giving something. So I decided to create a painting. I think it was back in February last year that Hetty asked if I would do a painting for her, after seeing the painting I made for my aunt.

I set up my art desk and identified my art supplies (all still in boxes from our move in April) which were conveniently located in the box that was tucked furthest away and underneath 3 boxes filled with books.. And I set to work. I started on the Sunday before the wedding and finished it on Thursday evening (because I flew out on the Friday), which is very fast for me. However, I think it's actually good for me to be under a bit of time pressure, because it makes me get on with things and forces me not to think too much. Thinking too much can have a devastating effect on 'getting things done' for me, because self doubt creeps in quickly and makes it impossible to create freely.

The first picture below is the finished painting. Stupidly enough I only took that one picture of it when finished rather than close-ups of the details as I usually do. Ah well. The other pictures are of the progress in chronological order. You can click each picture for a bigger version.

Hetty & Dimitri Finished Painting
Finished painting


Sketch on wood


Skin tones painted


Hair painted


Clothes painted


Cats painted


Initial background layers added

mood: happy

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Iris
Monday, June 28th, 2010 12:16 pm
Goodreads
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Who else is on Goodreads? I am totally addicted to adding all my books, rating & reviewing them!

So if you're on there, add me! If you're not.. go sign up!

http://www.goodreads.com/rrreow

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Iris
Thursday, April 15th, 2010 10:52 am
Quick Update

Birthday & Kindle

It was my birthday on Tuesday! As my present I got a http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amazon_Kindle

I first heard of them through Felicia Day going on about how great they are. It was something I kind of wanted for a long time, but never really thought it was worth it. Then I was doing some more research into it a few months ago and it really convinced me! Andrew is still sad I didn't want an iPad haha, but I really wanted a device solely geared towards reading books.

I'm getting a pink leather case for it as well, but unfortunately they're out of stock right now.

I've bought two books so far, some thriller I don't remember the name of and Priestess of the White by Trudi Canavan. I also downloaded a few free books (there are THOUSANDS of free books, mostly old classics) like Sherlock Holmes, collected fairy tales by Grimm and Andersen. It also supports .pdf format so I'll finally get around to reading wheat's writing that has been sitting on my hard drive for ages.

I've read a few chapters of the thriller and I'm really enjoying the reading experience so far. The only thing I have to be careful of is that I don't turn the pages too quickly. When I read a paper book I tend to start turning the page once I'm reading the final sentence. It's happened a few times that I've turned the page too quickly and not read the last sentence of the page haha.

Holiday

Going on holiday tomorrow. We've rented a cottage in Somerset for a week to celebrate Andrew's sister's 40th birthday. We've got quite a full schedule but it looks like it'll be a lot of fun. I'm looking forward to relaxing a bit as it's been a while since we had a holiday.

The Kindle has a very basic text browser so I'll see if I can access LJ (if there is 3G coverage out in the sticks anyway..). I tried accessing Google Reader yesterday but unfortunately that doesn't work =(

Moving

The day after we come back we're supposed to move house. Almost everything is packed and we've booked the removal company.. except the paperwork on the new place is still not finalised. If need be we can push the move back a few days but we only have about 4 days of leeway, then we have to vacate this property. So it's a bit nervewracking.

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Iris
Tuesday, March 30th, 2010 08:40 pm
Free Books!

We're moving house soon so I'm getting rid of a few books and they are looking for a new home!

If you would like one (or two, or all) please let me know in the comments or email me rrreow[@]gmail.com You'll have to be comfortable with giving me your address, I promise I won't stalk you.. much.

I do have to charge for the postage costs (Paypal) as sending all of these would add up! I have scales & a chart so it'll be accurate to the penny =p
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The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini (P)
A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini (H)

The Ruby in the Smoke by Philip Pullman (P)

Invisible by Paul Auster (H)

Shaman's Crossing by Robin Hobb (P)
Forest Mage by Robin Hobb (P)

Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb (P)
The Mad Ship by Robin Hobb (P)
Ship of Destiny by Robin Hobb (P)

P = paperback. H = hard cover

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Iris
Friday, March 26th, 2010 12:19 pm
A Short History of Nearly Everything [originally posted on www.iris-impressions.com ]

I bought A Short History of Nearly Everything by Bill Bryson about 4 or 5 years ago. It has spent a long time sitting on my bookshelf unread because to tell you the truth I was a bit scared of it. I expected it to be full of confusing dates, names & numbers like a dry and boring history book.

Having read a couple of chapters I can let you know it does include a lot of dates, names & numbers. However it is also utterly compelling, interesting and most importantly readable.

The reason I picked it up now of all times, is because Andrew and I were reading some Wikipedia articles about how old the earth is and about when dinosaurs walked the earth (these are the things you do as a married couple, you see). It is so easy to get caught up in your own life and small circle of experiences that it hit me with the force of a meteor (har har): this is the same earth that dinosaurs walked on.

Now you might think "DUHHH", but I find it seriously mind boggling to wrap my head around the fact that this ball of earth has seen creatures as fantastical as that, all in the same place where we now build our houses and schools and Burger Kings. Moreover, that creatures like that came into existence and evolved in the first place, that then they got wiped out and that then mammals evolved and we became us.. us who compared to the age of the universe have only been alive for a fraction of time.

It made me realise how temporary we are/could be. Not in terms of our individual lives (you are born and hope you live around 80 years and then you die), but the longevity of humans (or mammals and the rest of the animal kingdom in general). Looking at the history of the earth and seeing that all life was annihilated almost in its entirety several times and then started up again in a completely different configuration... It isn't hard to assume that this will happen again (although on average it only seems to happen every several hundred million years or so.. so for now we're safe to continue browsing the internet, going to the cinema and eating Ben & Jerry's).

All of those thoughts came from reading a couple of Wikipedia articles and it made me want to know more, and the why and how of things. Hence I finally picked up the book and started reading. My only criticism so far is that it glances over how people found out about certain things. It will tell you so and so had a theory and it was proven blablabla, but to me, a layperson and certainly not a scientist, it doesn't really explain those parts enough. What was it that really proved something in such a way that it was adopted as the mainstream scientific explanation of something? I am quite ready to believe scientific explanations 'because scientist x's research said so and y number of scientists agreed with the theory' but I'd like to know how they came to that conclusion without having to learn the discipline.

I am crap at updating so it is safe to assume I will not share any further thoughts on this book or this subject in the future (although I will think about it lots and write numerous draft in my head with a much better style of prose than you'll ever read from me). See you in 2011.

Ah yes, and in case you are not interested in reading my random philosophical musings, here, have some videos of my cat:



mood: okay

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Iris
Monday, February 8th, 2010 05:11 pm
RSI & Ergonomic Mouse
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I originally posted this on a World of Warcraft community but perhaps my trusty LJ friends also have experience on the matter:

I was hoping some of you might be able to offer me some advice.

I have an office job during the day where I spend most of my time at the computer. Then after work my two main hobbies consist of playing WoW and playing the violin. Combine these three and it results in quite a big strain on my right hand. It never really bothered me before but the past few weeks it's gotten really bad to the point where I need to take painkillers otherwise it hurts too much. The pain I experience is mostly in the palm of my hand (rather than the wrist, which is what a lot of people with RSI suffer from), it radiates out from the middle and also goes up my lower arm.

I think it's mostly exacerbated by the position my hand is in (kind of stretched out over the mouse, in a round shape) and using the scroll wheel (I use my middle finger for that).

So, I want to get an ergonomic mouse to help relieve the strain on my hand/arm. I'd specifically like one that puts my hand in a different position (less stretched) and doesn't produce the same strain when using the scroll wheel.

Please recommend me your favourite ergonomic mouse! It would be especially helpful to know if you've exprienced RSI in your hand as well and whether switching mouse helped and what other things you did that reduced your pain.

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Iris
Saturday, January 23rd, 2010 11:36 am
Phynne the Blood Elf Paladin dings 70
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Timing of this screenshot was a bit fail (I no longer have an addon that does it), but lookit! My little Hordie is growing up! (click for bigger version) And in case you can't read the text, she dinged 70 in that screenshot.



This is my first Horde character and it's so much fun! I was really quite bored with the game so it is awesome to approach the game from 'the other side'.

The random dungeon finder has also been a big contributing factor to making it fun. I did so many instances I never did when levelling most of my other characters. I hadn't been to places like Scarlet Monastery, Zul Farrak, Sunken Temple etc since levelling my first character years and years ago. It was also nice to revisit the Outland dungeons (although at lv68 it sent me to Sethekk Halls 4 times in a row...).

I've had some nice groups the past few days. Magister's Terrace, tanking that at lv69 was a bit terror inducing! The group was really nice though and they didn't get discouraged when we wiped and they also didn't mind waiting 1 minute before pulling the boss to discuss strategy. Seriously, sooo many people go 'just pull' and then get annoyed when they die or the whole group wipes.. I also did Shadow Labs which was such a flashback to farming that on heroic at lv70 with my druid. It made normal mode feel like such a breeze! The room before the "Time for Fun boss"... we accidentally pulled 3 groups together and everyone survived!!

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Iris
Saturday, January 2nd, 2010 07:28 pm
In 2009 (originally posted on http://iris-impressions.com)
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I update so infrequently that whenever I do, I first have to upgrade WordPress to the latest version. Happens every time! Here a little update with some major things that happened in my life in 2009.

Moving house

Up until February 2009 Andrew and I were living together in one room in a flatshare with two other people (and were also running our business from said room). We'd been there since the beginning of our relationship 4 years previously and needless to say it was cramped and you couldn't turn your arse cozy. Having got married the previous autumn we'd really hoped to be able to buy by that time, but it didn't work out. So we decided to at least find our own place to rent. It meant moving slightly further out from the centre of London but the space we got in return for it was definitely worth it. Not having to share the kitchen and bathroom with other people anymore is pure bliss!

Tikka

As a direct consequence of moving into our own place meant I could finally get a cat! I had wanted a cat since I was about 4 years old, but my mum didn't want cats so I had to make do with first a guinea pig, then several dwarf hamsters and also some mice (none of which I particularly liked as they were poor substitute for a cat). I had been doing research on cats for a while and decided I really wanted a Bengal as the personality of the breed really appealed to me as well as the look. At the beginning of April we picked up our little cat and brought her home! We called her Tikka both because she's a Bengal and because we live near Brick Lane (curry capital!).

She is everything we expected and then some! I cannot imagine life without her now. She is absolutely INSANE which fits our personalities quite well =p Right now she is asleep on top of a pile of boxes underneath a halogen lamp as it's nice and warm there.

Playing the Violin

In September I took up playing the violin. When I was little I'd had lessons for maybe 6 months or a year but quit quickly (after hardly practicing) because I felt very disappointed at how hard it was and how horrible it sounded! Nevertheless, it had always been my favourite instrument and continued to be so. Now as an adult I thought it more likely that I'd have the patience and dedication to try again. I'm taking lessons at a local college that specialises in evening education for adults. My class is very big (about 20 people - although in practice not everyone shows up every week) but the teacher is great and I feel like I'm making good progress. I enjoy the lessons and practicing at home and can't wait to get better!

California

Going to California has always been a dream for both of us. We initially wanted to do this for our honeymoon in 2008, but had next to no money left after getting married! So instead we went this year and I'm definitely glad we waited. It was the holiday of a lifetime and I enjoyed it immensely. We both really want to go back or perhaps try to live there part of the year.

1st Anniversary

31 October 2009 was our first wedding anniversary. I'm just so glad to be spending my life with Andrew! Our relationship grows stronger every year and I definitely think the past year has been exceptional in terms of how much closer we've become. In 9 days we celebrate our 5 years together!

Overall

This past year has been really good. I'm almost surprised as I am not used to my life being that enjoyable, always expecting disaster around the corner. I think I updated a while back writing about feeling more content and life being more in balance. I'm hoping this will continue and obviously will work on making it happen! One of the most valuable 'lessons' I learned this year is that you create your own destiny and that it's up to you alone how you approach and interpret what happens.

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Iris
Wednesday, July 8th, 2009 12:21 pm
The Tikka Monster!
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Iris
Sunday, June 28th, 2009 01:57 pm
*gasp* is this still England?

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